It's finally gonna happen!!!!!!!!!!

What's a seven letter word for pure happiness? D I V O R C E
It's finally in the works! Dummy pried his ring off with plyers and through it at me so i through it back and then into the garbage!! Yeah i'm finally free!! No more hearing what a terrible mother I am or how the house is a mess!! FUCK YOU DOUCHE BAG!! good luck finding a dummy that will put up with you!! YOU DRUNK PIECE OF SHIT!!! How about stop drinking and get your life together before you judge someone else DICK! I'm just sooooo happy to get out of this shame of a marriage!!! I haven't been in live with him since thlike him the "incident" and everyday more i send with him i hate him more and more!! The lawyers are called and i'm thrilled. I can't wait to find someone who actually loves me more then BEER. Not interested in finding anyone too fast I'll enjoy the time alone on my weekends OFF- WEEKENDS OFF my new two favorite words!! Don't worry Tracey and Cindy, I'm fine this has been coming for a long time I'm way over him!!! REALLY!!
peace out!

Decision Time

So i have decided that i don't want to be here anymore! Jeff is a DOUCHE BAG and my kids drive me soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo crazy that i don't want to be around them!!! I have decided that i will be getting a divorce and that i don't want custody of the kids, Jeff can have them. I have completely lost my mind, i can't concentrate on anything, i'm miserable ALL the time and all i want to do is SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM every second of the day. Sure i'll miss those two, mostly the big one, satan NOT SO MUCH. I'll see them on the weekends and during the week but i need to get out of the life that i am living CAUSE IT SUCKS- there are like 2 things in my life that i actually like, my FRIENDS and my FAMILY, meaning- mom, dad, sister, brother- that's it! MY LIFE SUCKS I HATE IT I WANT OUT OF IT! IF I HAD JUST ONE WISH, YOU WOULD THINK IT WOULD BE FOR ME TO BE WITH ROB OR TYLER, BUT NO IT WOULD BE TO GET A SECOND CHANCE AT MY MISERABLE LIFE CAUSE I WOULD DO THINGS ALOT DIFFERENTLY- REMEMBER WHEN I SAID I WAS NEVER HAVING KIDS WELL THIS TIME I WOULD ACTUALLY MEAN IT- AND JEFF WOULD NOT BE HERE EITHER- I WANT TO BE ALONE CAUSE I'M SOOOO UNHAPPY THAT I WOULD RATHER DIE THEN STAY IN THIS LIFE THAT I'M STUCK IN NOW! NEED TO GET AWAY FROM HERE AND MEET PEOPLE I DON'T DREAM ABOUT MURDERING! Cindy and Tracey- i'm not going to kill myself, i'm too selfish for that, but i dooooo hate my life and really do need to change it!

Yeah I Do!

That's my answer to u Jeffrey u asshole! I do except u to kiss my ass u want to know why because i should have left your ass last week when u turned my like upside down by getting a DWI u fuck! Everything has seemed to go back to normal, like oh well Jeff screwed up again but "this needed to happen, to make me see that i had a problem", u know what FUCK U!!!! Everything is not even close to being back to normal and it's not gonna be for a REALLY REALLY long time so fuck you and the horse u rode in on you bastard. WOW writing in this thing really make me feel better cause it lets me get everything off my chest and i don't have to feel guilty about what i say!! SO FUCK U JEFFREY BACZKIEWICZ CAUSE U SUCK!!!

A little better

I have calmed down a little since my last blog the other day, but I really needed to get that off my chest!! He has been a little better but not too much, we'll see how the rest of the weekend goes. He has already woken me up at 5am so it's not off to that great of a start, but only time will tell!!
Annie the saboteur really and she's kicked out the first week! CBS must be pissed!! The only thing left now is the life long friend thing, and Brendan cause he's HOT- Rachel's a dummy I can't stand her!!

SATAN

I AM 100% POSITIVE THAT 3 YRS AGO THIS PAST MARCH I WAS IMPREGNATED BY OLE LUCIFER HIMSELF BECAUSE 9 MOS LATER IN DECEMBER OF 2007 I HAS HIS "SPAWN" (ALL OF YOU MAY KNOW HIM AS CHRISTOPHER) BUT I KNOW HIM BETTER AS, WHAT I NOW CALL HIM, "SATAN"! HE IS THE WORST KID I HAVE EVER COME ACROSS IN MY LIFE!!! NO I'M NOT JUST UPSET AND NO HE'S 2 1/2 YRS OLD HE'LL GROW PUT OF IT, IT'S THE "TERRIBLE TWO'S", NO NO NO HE IS THE SPAWN OF SATAN HIMSELF. HE IS PURE EVIL!!!! HE IS TRYING TO SLOWLY KILL ME, I AM TOTALLY CONVINCED!!! I WOULD LOVE TO DROP HIM OFF SOMEWHERE AND BE RID OF HIM!! NO REALLY YOU GUYS HE IS HORRIBLE. ALL HE DOES IS SCREAM HIS BRAINS OUT, WAKES UP EVERYDAY BETWEEN 4 & 5 AM! AND IF YOU DON'T GET UP WITH HIM HE SCREAMS HIS BRAINS OUT UNTIL YOU GET UP WITH HIM, AND OF COURSE I'M THE ONE THAT GET'S UP WITH HIM EVERY FRIGIN GOD DAMN DAY!! OH WAIT ON SUNDAYS I GET TO GO BACK TO BED AT 8:30 UNTIL ABOUT 11-11:30 OH GEEZ THANKS YOU FUCK FACE!! BUT I DIGRESS. THIS "KID" IS BAD REALLY REALLY BAD AND I DON'T REALLY LIKE HIM!! REALLY I DON'T- I'M KIND OF SORRY TO SAY THAT IF I KNEW 3 YRS AGO WHAT I KNOW NOW I WOULD HAVE NEVER HAD HIM!! I SWEAR TO GOD I'M SERIOUS- NICK WAS NEVER EVEN CLOSE TO BEING AS BAD AS THIS KID! I CAN'T TAKE HIM ANYMORE, I'M ABOUT TO GO OVER THE EDGE- I CAN'T CONCENTRATE AT WORK, I'M SCREWING UP A LOT THEN USUAL- I'M SCREAMING MY BRAINS OUT AT HIM WHEN I'M DRIVING BECAUSE HE'S SCREAMING THAT HE WANTS GUM AND WHEN I GIVE IT TO HIM HE THROWS IT BACK AT ME. I JUST CAN'T TAKE THIS KID ANYMORE!!! I SERIOUSLY LOSING WHAT IS LET OF MY MIND!!! WOW I REALLY NEEDED TO GET THAT OFF MY CHEST- JEFF THINKS I'M AN ASSHOLE FOR THINKING AND SAYING THESE THINGS BUT I CAN'T HELP IT I'M GOING FUCKIN CRAZY!!
they better reveal the saboteur tonight on big brother cause i'm going crazy- i think it's kathy!

Seacrest OUT

Robert Pattinson

I have no idea why i LOVE him sooooo much, i just do. Watching the MTV movie awards last night just made me LOVE him more. When Kristen won for best actress, he was sooo smiley and happy, u could just tell how much he loves her. I miss being looked at like that :( but oh well life goes on, he'll probably be screwing another broad next week but still he loves her and u can totally tell!! The little skits with Tom Cruise were pretty funny 2!! I can't tell u why i love a 24 yr old kid but i do- he's HOT and he loves his girlfriend. I suppose i just want to b adored and i'm not. Yeah he loves me but i want 2 b looked at like i'm adored not just cause he has 2 or just does. I just miss being adored.

I HATE STUPID CRAZY PEOPLE

I really just can't stand people!! At work we have gotten (i swear to GOD) the dumbest, craziest people EVER this week. We had a lady come in the office the other day with her 2 kids. She asked me if we could write an excuse for her sons school because he had a rash on his stomach and his school wouldn't let him come back to school without a note from a dr. I asked her if she knew that she was in a dental office and she said "yes, the school said a note from any kind of dr was ok". I swear on my children's lives that is true! Then yesterday this crazy frigin guy came in with a long beard asking if we took walk ins, of course we do cause Aspen will take any riff raff that comes into the office from the streets. He was talking and every couple of words he was making this noise, it sounded like Hannibal Lector when he was saying " i ate his liver with fava beans and a nice Chianti", ya know that sucking in noise. I swear to God i thought he was going to grab me, kill me, then cut me up and put me in a refrigerator. He was frigin crazy!!!! I seriously wish that it was legal and acceptable to PUNCH someone in the face! I'm not kidding i just want to punch people sometimes so bad when they are talking to me and they say something stupid i just want to wind up and punch someone right in the face. If i were President...